The Soul Searching

These are pictures from last week when I went soul-searching for a new guitar. The first three pictures, it was a Dame guitar. It was on sale, I tried it. It sounded dry, the grip doesn't feel right. But the color and the shape is pretty much what I'm looking for. But then... I pass. 

Andaru was suggesting Yamaha. So we went to look for a Yamaha. I tried some, but this one, sounded perfect. Yamaha APX500II. In crimson red. After rounds of thoughts, and two chicken strips later, bringing home my new guitar.

PS: This is sort of an impulse buying, with a few thoughts. :P

(Photos by: Desire S.)

Good Reads

Psalm 145:10-18

You open wide your hand
All your works shall give thanks to you, O Lord,
and all your faithful shall bless you.
They shall speak of the glory of your kingdom,
and tell of your power,
to make known to all people your mighty deeds,
and the glorious splendor of your kingdom.
Your kingdom is an everlasting kingdom,
and your dominion endures throughout all generations.
The Lord is faithful in all his words,
and gracious in all his deeds.
The Lord upholds all who are falling,
and raises up all who are bowed down.
The eyes of all look to you,
and you give them their food in due season.
You open your hand,
satisfying the desire of every living thing.
The Lord is just in all his ways,
and kind in all his doings.
The Lord is near to all who call on him,
to all who call on him in truth.

A-Three-Paragraphed Shy-Thank-You Post

Some people came into your life for a reason, some has a reason to stay, but some others just happened only to stop by. You see, the phase where someone "stepped" into my life moments ago, though maybe only for a moment, somehow switched my life back on, and he really did. I did not realize that until I somehow got my heart.. how do you call it, sort-of, "broken"?

I don't know how to thank him that, to feel those feeling again. It made me realize, aside from all the adventure that I miss, that this is me, this is the me that I also miss. The one who was hiding underneath a mask, trying so hard to become a better person, but becoming someone else. The one who's not afraid to fell in love, be heartbroken, and get up again; the one who's up to anything; the one who enjoys being alone yet also loved for an impulsive company.

Well you deserve a thank you. Maybe that's why you were here, to put a smile upon my face, straight up from the warmth of the heart. Maybe it's not your duty to make it stay; maybe it's mine, or maybe it's somebody else's. But nonetheless, once again, thank you. I owe you one.

It's Always Darkest Before The Dawn

songs to listen to while reading my previous post

What Fits

Life is really trial and error, from the wake until we die. The past merely taught us on how to deal with the present, therefore. the past is a lesson.

About filling in what fits: I've learned that sometimes what you want isn't really what you need;it doesn't really fill in on what's empty deep inside. Fortunately, sometimes, what fits does arrived, so suddenly. And how long does it last? There is only uncertainty, for life is uncertain. And so again, another lesson learned. When that empty space is filled, you just cherish every moment within, while it last, or as if it would last forever. Because, there will be times when sometimes you got to let love -or universally speaking, something else- go, let it just pass through you, watering the dried soul, and then flow away.

It is so tempting to keep it, to hold on to it, as if it could last longer and perhaps forever. Maybe it's meant to be, but maybe it's just doing its job, filling in rough time. But then once again, who really knows?

"If you're looking for the love of your life, they will be waiting for you when you start doing things you love" - Holstee Manifesto (video)

Keep your heart open. :)

Morning Matters

there are times when you just need to shut your brain off and listen to yourself, how ridiculous you are.

Again About Believing

I came across Praulo Coelho's tweet this morning saying, "If you believe you can do it, you are right. If you believe you can't do it, you are also right".

Then I have this thought about life, the life you're living. Life is mostly about pursuing, searching, looking, and maybe longing for something. I need no explanation on this. But perhaps some people will say that they're not pursuing anything; they're just living their lives, go with the flow, and not pursuing anything. In my opinion, in this kind of situation, you're still looking for something, you're looking for surprises in life. By that means, all of the condition above have something in common. We all have that certain hope on life. In order to achieve that hope or wishes or the target of the pursuit, you need to believe in it, you need to believe in the hope in it.

But that sense of believing, came from a place of a mixed of reality and dreams, something vague and something real, but believing in the dream itself is a stepping stone. I mean to be realistic, a poor beggar can't instantly be rich just by believing in it, he/she must do something about it, right? But doing something about it without believing in it, doesn't make sense either, because you're just auto-pilot-ing your life like a robot.

So now what should I do? What should we do? I think I'm gonna start believing (again) in my dreams, believing in the pursuit of my dreams. I, myself, am still trying to fill in what fits in life, finding which puzzle fits, which dream fits. Lately, I spent too much time worrying on fears and uncertain realities instead of building hopes, dreams, and believes. I guess just need to get a hold on a hunch of believe, and the next step is only another foot forward.