The Power of Believe

A couple weekends ago, I went to Garuda Indonesia Travel Fair in Jakarta. My intentions were just checking the water, not really the water, but the prices on airplane tickets and tour packages, and where would I be travelling next year or the next year or the next year. Found a couple interesting packages, but still couldn't decided whether I am going just domestically or travelling abroad. 

I wanted to go to Universal Studio Singapore since I had a lot of fun at Universal Studio California. It's just a "I just had to go" feeling. But I guess, it's near. I could save up money and went there soon. Then, it all just went to become a part of plan in my mind. A desire inside.

A couple of fellow office mates got the chance to go to Singapore for the weekend joining a tour hosted by a paint company. And then came this one fine sleepy Monday, one of my office mate couldn't go because his passport was on hold from being issued due to security related matters. Long story short, luckily, I had given a copy of my passport to the company's secretary, so then I was chosen to replace him. Lucky me. Right?

Well, when I was told that I would be going, I was so excited but I got to keep it cool so that no one knows how happy I am to get the chance to went for a break, and haven't I said, one day of the tour is dedicated to a full day at Universal Studios Singapore. I went crazy happy ballistic. 

Yea. You just got to put it in your mind and heart then sync it to the universe. Fuckyea, I am going to Universal Studios. I believe it was the universe conspiring. I, believe. 

And today, I got a newsletter from the Secret. It told me, you have to desire something you want, not begging desperately for something you need. Because needing and desperation equals lacking something. When you're emitting negative energy from feeling lacking of something, how could you draw something you want closer. 

So, here is a story of the power of the Secret. Ask. Believe. Receive.

Long Story Short

Today, I had a chance to take pictures for the engagement party and ceremony of a senior, which is also a good fiend of mine, Maya, and also helping Christy while she's doing the make-up. It was so much fun, I even got to do the hair for one of the sisters of the bride-to-be! 

The engagement ceremony was nice, serene, and the decoration was superb. All kudos to Maya and her sister for doing all the flower arranging, seating arrangin, decoration and such. The clothes were also very nice. She wore a turquoise lace kebaya while her sisters wore pastel blue kebaya with vintage-cut.

The clash of turquoise, white, red, and hot pink was surprisingly very nice. The flower arrangements, the gifts from the groom's family all was nicely prepared and think through. The food was intense. They were also very delicious.

Long story short, I was so happy that Maya and Ezra is finally getting married. I saw them each as a star, with their own glow, and they still balanced each other. This is a finally! And hope this one's final and forever and ever!

PS: check out my friend Christy who's doing all the make up!

Granma doing last minute check

The chair

Maya - Kindah - Fallah - Babby

Maya

Kindah - Babby - Maya - Fallah

The families waiting for Maya

Kindah - Babby - Maya - Fallah

Maya & Ezra - Engaged!

Ezra - Maya - Yessie

Maya getting touch-up

Intan - Maya - Dedi

Maya - Me - Ezra

Life's Good

Ending a busy night, marking the start of weekend, with a glass of milk ++ while enjoying Saturday Night Live old episode. Life's good.

Why Worry

"I worry

I wonder all the time 

Why worry?

It's killing me

Forget about it"

-The All American Rejects (Why Worry)

Well, the song relates only on that part actually. But it sums it all. If worry is a misuse of imagination, really, why worry? Forget about it. Today I found out that somethings are just better to not be worried. Life goes on anyway. 

Couple days back, I worried about a simple little thing. Ended up asking for point of view and opinion on that simple little thing. Afterwards, I feel foolish for even asking for an opinion. Worry leads you on a weird place, eh? And today, I realize that what I am worried about was not worth to be worried. Relieved? Yes. Worry brings me to an anxious state. It's somehow like an adrenaline for me. It rushes me. It makes me want to do things, just to shake the bad feeling off. And hell yea, I am good at it now. I've found the outputs. 

In the end, worry just need and outputs. Like writing it right now, or go see a movie, or go window shopping, or talking to a friend (in which in my case this will only lead to another long contemplation, sometimes need to be avoided), or as easy as sleeping it off. When you're worried, just remember to remember, open your eyes, and embrace everything around, you'll see a bigger picture, or if less, you'll see a grip you could hold on to. Ah, that's a relieve.

Anyway, so excited to see Foster The People this January, they had just announced their show in town on twitter. Yay for that! To close up this post, sooth yourself by listening to Kina Grannis. My new favorite, (well, been adoring her for a while).

Next Chop

It took me two years to grow my hair from this

 to this

That's a lot of hair and a long road. And next year, I am gonna CHOP IT OFF, like her. Not sure yet when to chop it off, but she has the chic-est style and love love love the hair. Check her out, here.

Reading...

...things, gets you thinking... .

I am following a couple of blogs through Google Reader, RSS feeds. And somehow, I feel like I am being a secret admirer when I feel like "damn, I feel you, bro" and I wanted to have a conversation regarding the matter he/she discuss but I don't want them to know that I read their blogs. Weird? Weird enough for me. 

And the latest post I read was about doubt and judging people. (Click any link of blogs on the left bar, probably you'll know whose post I am talking about.)

Doubt. It might be the enemy of your future. I must agree. Based on my latest experience, when in doubt, follow your guts. If you have enough guts and bandage for those broken hopes and dreams, Go for it. If you don't, back out. If I look at it again, I was just trying to not being grey, when sometimes being "grey" is the best option. "Black" and "white" often requires sacrifice(s) and I don't want to handle anymore sacrifices, so I back out. 

When you don't have enough guts, all you have were doubts. Where do doubts leave you? Blurry places, too many surprises. Back to the beginning, if you can handle surprises, go for it. In the end, whatever paths, you just got to make the best out of it. So when in doubt, I follow my guts (well after doing a bargaining options with myself and few c&c with different people that is).

And after you came with a decision, comes the judging. Either it's good or bad (things), people will judge you the way they want to judge you anyway. So, once again, just take responsibility. One thing very important for me, keep close friends for a more honest judgement you can handle. Cause when people are saying things, your closest friends know best way to react. I am not saying my friends agree with every decision I made, but true friends supports in each and different ways. Silence, hatred, patience, and else. 

You judged and you're also judge. It's a "what goes around comes around" thing. You shouldn't judge people on their actions when they're vulnerable. I agree. Came to think of it, on the verge of their vulnerability, people often have to make decision. And often a decision you made when you're vulnerable is a life changing situation. It shaped who you are. In my case, I judge a person on a vulnerable situation, then comes doubt, then comes the decision (on a vulnerable position) and it comes back to me again. I am judged, they decide, and I judged and they decide and other people judge, and other people decide and so on and so on. It's the molding part of your life and it may be the hardest just yet. 

So life is ALREADY that complicated (well, I made it one). But it's a thrilling process, so just embrace it all and make the best of all of it. Gather your guts, or anything that's left, and make the best of everything. Everything comes around anyway.

And one last thing, when you're in repair, every once in a while it's very easy to recall every feelings on the rough path you've been through. You just have to know when to pause, think back a little, and say to yourself, like what I am doing now,  "Enough, enough". Moving on is not forgetting, it's a process of learning.

Then press play again to your life. :)

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